if i could change this world then i'd turn it completely upside down

There is an incredible searing pain in my chest and it has an element of nervousness. I feel ripped open and exposed. Today at the gym I saw someone who looked so much like you, and I stared and willed it to be you and for you to come talk to me, but it wasn’t and you didn’t.

I tried calling but I got your voicemail, like I always do.

"i had made a friend like i'd never known who made me feel like i was a special someone.

he cared like i had never done,

why oh why didn't, didn't i just phone?

and now i'll never know what was wrong,

but there must have been something i could have done.

andy's smile was a mia child and his drink was guinness i think.

andy's walk amused us all and he was mystifying.

i didn't really know him that long, compared to some a,

compared to a sense of loss like i had never known, and what was important, i was completely wrong.

and if i could change this world then i'd turn it completely upside down."