I feel as if I'm wasted, I wasted everyday

Lately my life seems to be so black and white, either it's beautiful or it's painful, and it teeters back and forth so easily. One comment or action changes it, so I'm constantly jumping back and forth between the two. Blogging is so hard these days, I have nothing to say and too much to think about. This weekend might will either be amazing or horrible. Yesterday was a close call. I feel so pale, I need some vitamins. But tanning will do.
I am drawn to listen to Jimmy Eat World.