mother, don't worry. I got some money I saved for the weekend

Mother, remember the night that the dog had her pups in the pantry?
Blood on the floor, fleas on their paws,
And you cried 'til the morning

I'm sure there is no music more beautiful anywhere.
I'd forgotten all the things I used to love,
the smell after it rains,
the beautiful colours in fall
the reddish in my hair,
how good it feels to be curled up with
my dog,
hiking with Isabelle.

I made a decision based on those things,
I know it's the right one.
The terrible phase of indecisiveness and feeling helpless is gone and it feels so good. So good.