i need you like a heart needs a beat/like man needs meat

...like the sky needs the stars/like an alcoholic needs the bar.

my friendship with sea kelp has been repaired. it was only a miscommunication. Last night i had a sort of...revelation. i was laying in my bed contemplating the fact that i couldn't feel your hand cupping my face anymore and basking in this horrible feeling when the most beautiful thoughts came flowing into my head. i say "flowing" instead of "popping,"for example, because essentially thats what it felt like- some great dam in my head had been opened and all these beautiful waters started running. i felt like i was living in a level of reality i'd never been to before, which is ironic because that is exactly what i felt this time last weekend. But it was different this time, i was alone and it was more about self-discovery as opposed to life experience discovery. they could i suppose be considered somewhat the same thing, but i'd argue that it's what you learn about yourself when you are in these experiences that matters. and matter it does, its the whole point of life, and that's all im doing, dramatic as it may be. it's life. Life! LIFE!